| wow has it definatley been a while since i last wrote in here.. well im in school now and i just decided that i was going to get on here to see if this thing worked.. and by golly it did haha.. yay!!! well, anyways. I'm really bored here in school... and there has been so much that has happened to me over the last few months since i have written and i dont really know how many of you are really paying attention to anything.. so yeah.. haha ... <center>
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well isn't that a relly cute picture? i like it my best frend wendy sent it to me and i saved it to put it on my photobucket.. and well.. yeah.. anyways i shall keep y'all posted on my life.. probably every day now that i know that this works.. haha ... c ya later!!! |
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| ok so i know i havnt ritten in a while..i been really busy iguess with myself, andwith my other things...im so happy that tommrow is motheres day cuz i got my mom something and igot my other mom something too and yeah...sorry if this is really messy but i hurt my wrist...igot mad so i puched a wall..so yeah....bye bye .. |
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| yeah...today was nuts...i stayed after with nate...to lift...hes me new
"personal trainer" lol...it acutally wasnt that bad once almost all the
guys were gone...i was dong really good...and i catn wait till i do
more...!! im soo gonna be hotter than i am now!! lol....im starting to
feel better bout myself too.....so thats really good to....so
yeah...dunno waht to talk about..oh yeah..this week in skool we are
doing those dumb pssa testing things..and our homeroom teacher is uhmm
giving the test..so we gotta go somewhere else in the morning...so we
go to mr. vescovi's room...and he is FREAKY...im talking freakng funny
looks when hes on his comp[...and he just looks funny...he even has
"poses.." m tellking you...tomorrow i am getting new batteries in my
digital camera...and i am taking pictures of this stuff man!! its
HILARIOUS!!! so...i dunno waht else to say...so imma go...ill talk to
yall later....buh bye
take care * godbless....
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| hey...whats up pplz?? not a lot here...hanging out with Laura and Carol @ Carols house! its totally awsome...just us gurls...and were having a blast. I never really realized that Laura was a lot like me..and we had a lot in common until today...and its really really awsome, and i totally love it! becuae now. i guess i can talk to her more about stuff...and its easier to udnerstand her more..and i guess you could say i am a little more closer to her now... lol. so wahts up? what have you guys been up to? i havent been able to be on ehre for quite a while! sorry bout that! im listening to THE USED's older album,and its totally awsome....well...i dunno what else to really say..but i have been through a whole lotta stuff...I went to a mental hospital a fe wweeks ago...and i dont really know waht it did...im on 10 miligrams of Lexapro..which isnt really helping me very much with my depression and they wanna do some tests for adhd since i havent been paying attention a lot and havent been able to concentrate very good....so....i missd really being home..the place was kind cool...and i hated it soemwhat...only because i wanted to go home so bad..and i missd nate and carol...like...sooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad....and i cut while i was in there...it was really bad..and still is...i did it with a belly button ring,....it was kida pretty bad....i did it while i was sitting there in my room...on my bed..and just wanted to do it soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad...so i did...it son my leg...its pretty bad..and it hurt really bad...i came home and was okay..only becuase it was so good to be home...i remember whenever i went to leave on sunday...that nate and me were both crying...i guess he didnt really realize that i was that bad and needed that much help..and he just was scared that when i came home that i wasnt gonna be the same as i was...and i really really love him so much...im not gonna deny it....he told me he loved me too...only becuase of waht weve been through and how close we are..and i msooooooooo scared that when hes gonna go away...hes gonna not talk to me as much...and when he comes home...im not gonna be as close to him as i am now...and im not gonna have someone to talk to when i need it..adn im sooo scared that im gonna do something stupid......becuase i wont have him there to talk to when i feel hurt or upset or feel liek cutting or dying .... so yeah....and it sucks..becuase he saved my life...if it werent for me ... id be dead by now for sure...and im still thinking about it..but i cant do that to him..or my family....and my frends.....its just taht i get so depressed over nothing...and then i think about him..what he did to save my life...and how much he hlepd me...and everything else...and i love it so much...but then it tears me apart..becuase of my past....i hate to think that it really happened...becuae i dont think that i deserve it..but then wen we hang out and talk i take it for granted and i hate it...i really really do...but i dunno waht to do i guess.... |
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| yeah...today is going okay...ive been up for quite some time...and me
and my mom have been doing some stuff aroudn here...while my dad n my
cuz are tearing apart my bathroom...so yeah.... ...anyways...todays
going great...i met a great guy not too long ago..and hes really
sweet....i been tlkn to him online for a few days...and yea.h..he
thinks that his hair is messy....and it is...but i like it messy...!!!
haha...
take care * godbless
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